Fear of the Unknown

Is it bad to cringe at the thought of the future? Well I guess I don't really cringe, it's more like, I'm just totally 100% terrified of the future and what it's going to hold for me. But I don't know why, someone once said something that was really insightful that I wish I could feel, "I don't know what my future holds, but I'm certain of who holds my future" And it's so true because I know that God has a hand in my future, and that it is going to be phenomenal, but a part of me is terrified, because I don't know where God is going to send me. I've wanted to be a youth minister for a couple years now, and I was certain at a time that that is what God wanted me to do, but as I've gotten more involved with mission work, I really can see my future in that, but i'm scared. Because I don't know where I will end up. God could send me halfway across the world, and I would have to go because how can you say no to the creator of the universe. But at the same time, I'm super incredibly excited, because the creator of the stars and moon, and sun and rain has chosen me to help Him tell the whole world about Jesus Christ, and that's exciting, but I can't get over this anxiety! I can't get over the thoughts of not being near my family and friends, and that terrifies me! It terrifies me more than you know! And I guess part of my fear is fear without faith, and don't get me wrong, I have faith, but I don't think I have confidence in my own abilities, and I think that is because without Christ, I have no strength or abilities, so therefore I don't know why I am scared because obviously if God sends me He will protect me whereever I go. I think also though one of my biggest fears is the fear of not being accepted, and I think that really makes me not be able to see my mission field at home. And I know that it's not a good thing because Jesus was made fun of, and spit on, and ultimitately crucified, so why am I scared. Like I can go to Kentucky, and I can go to Louisiana, and share about Christ, but a part of me is scared to spread Christ's love in Madison Heights VA, and I can't believe that i'm even sharing that because it's embarrasing. So throughout this year, that's going to be my goal, to love the unlovable, and to share Christ's Love everywhere, and not worry about what other people say about me, because I AM princesss because my father is the king of kings! = )