ICatch Myself

I catch myself daydreaming

A LOT
I used to think it was some sort of disorder
You know one of those WebMD disorders
The ones that you Google
In a matter of seconds you become a ticking time bomb
You become a ball of cancer
you have a tumor
The small freckle on your face becomes skin cancer
The cough you’ve had for 2 days becomes lupus
The anxiety becomes a brain tumor
WebMD
WebMD grows a technologically dependent
Group of people who believe they have everything in the book
A common cold is surely nothing short of
PNEUMONIA
A sprained ankle is definitely
BROKEN
The anxiety begins
Your mind instantly plays worst case scenario
Palms sweat
Your mind races
You can’t concentrate from the fear
So you look up another disorder
This time you have an autoimmune disorder on top of
SKIN CANCER
BRAIN TUMOR
PNEUMONIA
And
BROKEN ANKLE
A doctor visit causes you to take a day off of work and
The verdict is
HYPOCHONDRIAC


(just kidding)

The Present

The clock makes the same sound
Second after second
Minute after minute
Hour after hour
Tick
Tock
The days pass by
The weeks scurry on
I wonder what the future looks like
My OPD kicks in (over planning disorder)
The anxiety hits, palms sweating
I wonder
I wonder what the future holds
I can’t sleep, the anxiety cripples
The future holds me in its grip
And then I realize that it doesn’t have to
I realize that the present is silently calling my name
The sound is so quiet, it makes no noise.
It passes me by with only a whisper.
The people come and go like passengers at a train station
Faces change, places change, stories change.
Liberation
Liberation comes when we choose to live in the present
Freedom comes for the captive that watches the sun rise and set
The weeks scurry on
The days pass by
Tock
Tick
Hour after hour
Minute after minute
Second after second
The clock makes the same sound