Saturday, March 13, 2010

"In my heart and my sould, I give you control, Consume me from the inside out"

"to love you from the inside out"

"And the cry of my heart is to bring you praise, from the inside out, my soul cries out"

the words of that song by Hillsong United, made my heart feel heavy today. As I listened to the words, I couldn't help but think about my relationship with Christ, and how so much of the time, I want to give God 100% control, but then I get scared, and I pull back. It's a constant battle. It's a constant battle of the fear of losing control. I've chosent to go to Carson-Newman College next year.

In case you guys are like, "huh?"

Carson-Newman is a small Liberal arts college in Jefferson City TN.. It's a Baptist School, and I'm really getting excited about going there next year! For a while, I was literally terrified about going there. I didn't know where to go to school, and I just had such a lack of peace about the whole situation.

I learned through that though, that when you just take time to be still, when you take the time to actually listen to God instead of complain to Him, that He will give you exactly what you need to hear at exactly the right time! =)

I started working at a pre-school last Monday March 1st! I absoulutely love it so far. It's definitely showing me that I need to work with children when I get older, and to me that is exciting.

I'm not exactly sure what God has in store for my future, but I'm excited for His plans to be revealed to me a little at a time, it's sooo incredibly amazing! I keep having dreams and visions about being a church planter, and that excites me beyond what words can say! =) I know that whatever God tells me to do, I will be faithful, and I will obey His commands so that His work on earth can be fullfilled.

"The will of God will not take you where the grace of God will not protect you"

Blessing until later,
Jaime =)