My heart at the moment

Fear: the four letter word that accounts for many failures in life, and holds people back from achieving their goals and aspirations. The four letter word, that is holding ME back from being who God has called me to be! Honestly, I know what God wants me to do! God wants me to be a missionary. God wants me to live my life totally 100% for Him, to totally give up "Jaime" and be "Jaime/God" okay maybe not that drastic, because I will still be Jaime, but it will be God living through me. How cool does that sound, God loves me so much that He wants to live through me, and to show me how to daily follow Him! That's exciting! But then that four letter word comes in. I don't know why i'm scared, I mean what could be wrong with the creator of the whole universe planning out my life totally and completely! AWESOME to say the least. Honestly, I really think God wants me to do work in Haiti. I really feel that call and that burden on my heart. Please don't think though that i'm some kind of religious moron who is all into helping others when disaster strikes, but no other time. You can ask my friends and family if you don't believe me, Haiti has been somewhere in my mind since my mission trip to Manchester in November. The first time I ever met Drucie she told me she wanted me to go to Haiti with her. And ever since atleast once a week if not many more times, my heart is burdened for the lost souls in Haiti, for the lonely people, for the children who are orphans just left on the street, for the starving malnourished babies, who need food and some LOVE, for the young adults, and adults of all ages who just need someone to talk to, who jsut need someone to tell them that they matter, and that they are loved, but more importantly that they are loved by the eternal father, the creator of the universe, the one who perfectly placed the stars in the sky, and knows the number of hairs on each persons head! and honestly, even though my parents don't want me to go to Haiti, I know that sometime in my near future, I'm going to have the opportunity to go, and at that time, my parents hearts will be softened, and at that time, they will say yes for the holy spirit will be speaking through them! Please, if you are reading this, please be in prayer for the people in Haiti, and also please be in prayer that if it is God's will for me to do missions in Haiti, that my parents will allow me to go! Thanks Guys, God Bless!